(Note: This post has a lot to do with breastfeeding, so if you feel uncomfortable with such topics, feel free to skip. All you moms out there will get me on this. Holla. :)
So, the other day I realized that I understood why so many facebook users were so up in arms with a new facebook policy outlawing photos of moms breastfeeding their babies. This isn't to say that I myself wanted to put breastfeeding photos up on facebook, but for the first time I understood WHY someone might want to do such a thing. It is because babies do some of the cutest, most endearing, lovable, adorable things right before, during or immediately after breastfeeding! For an infant whose primary waking activity is eating, this pretty much makes sense.
So, I am taking a bit of a risk in writing this post, knowing that many of my male readers (i.e. my dad, father-in-law, brothers-in-law, guy teammates, etc.) might be offended (I hope you just skipped instead of being offended!) but SOOO many of the little changes I see happening in Sarah that are so wonderful and exciting are breastfeeding related! One of the first things I started noticing a week or so ago is eye-contact--for the first few minutes of a feeding, Sarah and I will lock eyes and it is absolutely precious! When she was first born, her eyes were mostly closed, or if they were open they just glassily stared off at nothing, so eye-contact is a significant change! While she's eating, she will also rest her little hand up on my chest in a way that just indescribably expresses that she somehow feels connected to me. Another favorite is after she has finished eating, she will pull her head away and up, and then set back down again right on the breast like a pillow and let herself doze off to sleep. I have no other words to describe these little interactions other than amazing.
My friend Erin-Ashley's most recent
post includes a poem where a mother describes all the housework and other things she is neglecting because she realizes just how precious and fleeting such moments are. It made me tear-up when I read it this morning (to which my husband said, "Hormones!"), because I realize I RELATED to it (well, not so much the neglected housework since I am still at the Juniper Tree with all my meals cooked for me and laundry washed and ironed, but I get the JOY of rocking your child, just staring into his or her eyes, etc.)
So, no bare-breasted photos on facebook, or otherwise (for that matter!), but I am enjoying some wonderful and precious moments with my little girl that I just couldn't go without describing for you all. I am making the incredible discovery of a wholly new and amazingly intimate relationship created by our Heavenly Father. Praise Him!